I got a job at a fitness studio and my boss wants me to to start teaching ASAP!!! All I wanted was to be front desks or maintenance but teaching.. Ready!
I sometimes get so trapped in my thoughts of the future or my past that I forget to experience, let alone enjoy, what’s happening right now.Dau Voire (via kushandwizdom)
I would say my tolerance for anger, sadness and all things negative is pretty high. And not achieving what I deserve and desire seems to be the biggest obstacle of my twenties and there isn’t much that’s worse than that feeling (for me) being back where I started after so many risks were taken is tough, but nothing is more motivational either.
Its tough to watch all my friends return to university, begin work training, party and enjoying college again. I feel so bad for the person who was almost my roommate. Two weeks before school he finds out he won’t have a roommate.. That sucks!
It’s tough seeing everyone achieve their goals yet here you are so determined and damn near done and another set back occurs.
My life was actually perf. when I was living in my own space, working two jobs ( reception and waitressing) and running track. I was doing well in every class and eventually earned my Associates degree. I wasn’t being bothered with any family business because I had my own.
I should have just stopped at that. I shouldn’t have tried for my BA. It was a complete waste of time&money only to end up even further from where I started.
I have sucky parents who really have never supported my track and field achievements, don’t even believe I can achieve anything, never tried to pay for anything for me, and just are so fed up with paying they don’t even converse with me anymore.
It’s wack seeing the jobs and internships I had lined up back at U just disappear after working hard for them the previous semester.
The wackiest things is I hate school but I know without degrees you won’t make it very far. It’s sucks to finally find a major you love, pursue and excel in and it all just get taken away.
I’ve never excelled in high school like I did in college. To put all that effort in and still be classified as a drop out is just wack.
And so here I am. Not living, existing. In this space still applying for jobs and just breathing. I haven’t been running in three days. I go to the gym for twenty minutes to lift and leave because I am so unmotivated.
That whole, “everything happens for a reason” is bullshit. Why would this higher being make me a drop out two semesters from graduation.
I FUCKING HATE SOCIAL ANXIETY BECAUSE YOU’RE SCARED TO TALK TO PEOPLE BUT ALSO DYING TO TALK TO PEOPLE AND HANG OUT AND RELAX AND HAVE FUN AND NOT BE ALONE AND LONELY AND FEEL LIKE SHIT BUT YOU DO FEEL LIKE SHIT BECAUSE YOU CAN’T EVEN RELAX ENOUGH TO TALK TO PEOPLE WITHOUT OVERTHINKING EVERYTHING